I write because I'm afraid to say some things out loud

I write because I'm afraid to say some things out loud

As a real live preacher, I often find myself grappling with the weight of the words I speak. My congregation looks to me for guidance, for wisdom, for comfort. They come to me seeking solace in times of trouble, seeking answers to life's most difficult questions. And yet, there are some things that I am afraid to say out loud.

I write because I'm afraid to say some things out loud. Writing allows me to carefully choose my words, to craft them in a way that conveys the depth of my thoughts and emotions without the fear of stumbling over them in the moment. It allows me to explore the complexities of faith, of doubt, of fear, without the pressure of immediate response.

There are times when the weight of my own doubts and fears feels too heavy to bear. There are times when I question my own beliefs, when I wonder if I am truly worthy of the trust that my congregation places in me. In those moments, I turn to my writing as a form of therapy, as a way to process my own inner turmoil and find clarity in the chaos.

Writing allows me to be vulnerable in a way that speaking out loud does not. It allows me to explore the depths of my own soul, to confront my own demons, to wrestle with my own doubts and fears. It is a form of self-expression that is both cathartic and empowering, a way to make sense of the world around me and my place in it.

And yet, even as I write, there are some things that remain unsaid. There are some truths that are too painful, too raw, too personal to share with others. There are some fears that are too deep, too dark, too overwhelming to bring into the light. And so, I write. I write to exorcise my demons, to confront my fears, to find peace in the midst of chaos.