That day at chemo, we talked once more about the ending of The Reluctant Fundamentalist. “I just really want to know which character dies. I've read the ending again and again, ” I said. “I hate not knowing. ” “I do too. That's why I always read endings first. But sometimes you just can't know what's going to happen, even when you know everything there is to know. So you prepare for the worst but hope for the best."