When I hurt myself on an inanimate object I yell at it and beat it until I think it got what it deserves

When I hurt myself on an inanimate object I yell at it and beat it until I think it got what it deserves

When I hurt myself on an inanimate object, my immediate reaction is one of anger and frustration. The pain shoots through my body, and I can't help but feel a surge of rage towards the object that caused me harm. It's as if the object intentionally hurt me, and I can't help but take it personally.

In that moment of intense anger, I find myself yelling at the object, as if it can understand my words and feel my wrath. I curse at it, calling it names and blaming it for my pain. I let out all of my pent-up frustration on this inanimate object, as if somehow that will make me feel better.

But yelling is not enough. I feel the need to physically express my anger, so I start beating the object with my fists or kicking it with my feet. I want to make the object feel the pain that it caused me, to show it that it can't just hurt me without consequences.

As I continue to beat the object, my anger starts to subside. I can feel the adrenaline coursing through my veins, and with each blow, I feel a sense of release. It's almost as if I am purging myself of all the negative emotions that were building up inside of me.

Eventually, I stop hitting the object, my hands or feet sore from the impact. I take a deep breath and try to calm myself down. The object may not have feelings or emotions, but in that moment of anger, it felt like the only way to cope with the pain and frustration I was feeling.